....I'm scared I'll lead myself down a road with no return.
A twisting and narrow path of darkness with no alternate routes.
No exits at all.
I lock myself up in my heart and mind. I don't want anyone. I don't need anyone.
I do. I do need someone Him.
He will help me get through this phase of emptiness and nothingness.
Ultimately, I'm trying to redeem myself by writing something somewhere.
Maybe it will make me feel better about myself somehow....
I have to express this in the best way I know how. I will write my feelings out.
I would bleed my thoughts and feelings in dark ink onto paper, but I've gotten lazy to the point of corruption.
Oh, if only I were in high school again....
So many of those "if only"s cross my mind.
But the fact of the matter is, I can't turn back time. I will not have a regretful past.
I will live the way I'm supposed to, with a purpose.
And what, exactly, is my purpose?
That is something I plan on discovering this year.
A specific goal, an objective, something to help me carry on.
Faith? Love? Determination? The need to prove myself to others?
I don't know yet.
But I will find out soon.
And when I find out, I will rejoice!
With a full blunt force of a marching band, I will sing aloud at the top of my lungs!
I will find my reason for living. My purpose.
Until then, I will work hard.
No more slacking off, no more time to waste.
I have to work hard for that unknown, at least for now, purpose.
I have not been writing anything in a long time other than essays and reports for my university courses.
It gives me great strength and pleasure to see my words on my laptop screen presently.
I am, in fact, smiling in my heart.
With each word, I gain more motive.
With each word, I know I will make it somehow.
I also know that I will only focus on passing my courses with high grades that I will lose track of my currently-barely-present social life even further. No matter. My friends will understand my priorities and the urgency that comes along with them.
It is with utmost pride I say that I will pray every day for my given purpose and fulfilling that purpose will be a lifelong task I'm more than willing to accomplish.
Thank You, God, for these blissful days.
For this understanding You will provide me, my given purpose You will reveal in good time.
I know You are the only One that will help me get through this.
The only One that will carry me when I stumble and fall.
The only One that will empower me and cheer me on when I lose my courage.
For all this and more, I am, and always will be, forever grateful.
Thank You.
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