Painful Breakups

I've gone through a friendship breakup that was quite severe in high school.

I almost experienced something similar yesterday. When you have a really bad friendship breakup, the pain you feel is... Dull. When you get torn up and hurt physically, you get a rush of adrenaline released from your body to numb the pain. Afterwards, you don't feel anything. Until the adrenaline rush dies down and you feel the most unbearable pain there is. It's the worst kind of pain, and I cannot emphasize on how much it tore my heart to pieces the first time I went through it. I honestly think it was worse than the breakup with my ex-boyfriend. That was horrible for me, but this? It cannot even compare to the absurdity of the amount of pain you feel. It's indescribable how much it hurts inside. Thinking about losing my best friend, I could even drive myself to be so depressed, I could commit suicide. That's how extreme it is. That's how much it hurts for me.

Friends, for me, don't come easily. They should be precious to you, irreplaceable, and you should always feel a nice, fuzzy, warmth when you think of your best friend. I believe friendship is a different type of love: it is sometimes better than the love you have for your partner. The bond between friends can surpass the bond between lovers, because you tend to tell your deepest and darkest secrets to your friends. Of course you'd tell your lover all the complaints you have about your best friend, but that, my friends, is nothing compared to how much we talk behind our partners. It is hilarious to weigh the goods and bads of boyfriends over goods and bads of best friends. There's a common saying that goes like, "bros before ho's"... It is very true in most cases, at least for me.

Undergoing a breakup with a best friend leaves the greatest remorse and regret. You always think, what if you did things differently? What if you tried harder to make them feel closer to you? So many 'what if's' go through your mind, and at the end, you just have to ask yourself, did you try your best to be their best friend? If the answer is yes, you have nothing to lose. It's the same as any other relationship. You have to give it your all to receive their all, and if that doesn't happen, relationships often falter and ultimately fail. So, to whom does the victory go? Well, whoever tried their best. Their ultimate best - to make sure their best friend feels comfortable, to make sure they are healthy, to make sure they are content with their life and its goals.

Power to you who managed to keep a best friend around for at least ten years. Sure, you might have had major fights and arguments in between, but they help build your relationship even further. Knowing what the other person is upset about you, will help you become a better person. If you want advice from anybody, turn to your best friend. They will give you the best advice that best suits your needs, your personality, and your surroundings. If they don't know you that well, then regrettably, they really aren't your best friends. They sometimes know your potential to be a better person and help you move forward, even when you doubt yourself.

In conclusion, don't ever falter. Don't lose your best friends. Don't give up on them, especially when you're unstable, because you'll realize sooner or later, you need them more than they need you at times. But they'll put up with you for whatever it is worth. Because they're your best friends. Love them, care for them, miss them when they aren't there, and treasure them. That's the only way you'll receive their love too.

I love you, my darling best friends - you better know who you are! J'adore vous <3

You are the BEST friends a girl could ever ask for!